it's all about that click

- my lady, you choose where you want us to go!
- hmmm, let me think… how about to the moon and back?
- sure! perfect idea! I will come to pick you up and of course there is no question that I will take you back home.
- yes but your place is 200 light years away.
- oh do not worry about that. there is no trouble for me!

- my lady please, allow me to hold the car door open for you!
-  thanks. please don’t forget that you should always do that if you want us to keep dating.
- sure! my pleasure!

- my lady please, you enter first! please, after you!
- oh alright, thanks. and again please do not forget that you should always do that if you want us to keep going out together.
- but of course! no doubt about that.

- my lady you order first! please, bring the lady whatever she wants to!
- weeell, I’d like the sky with some extra stars and the milky way galaxy with cocoa powder on top.
- perfect choice! and of course it is on me! there is no way to let you pay the bill… ever!

- my lady your eyes are enhancing, your voice is so relaxing and your skin is so smooth!
- well, yes but… I haven’t slept well and I have dark circles under my eyes, plus it’s that sore throat that bothers me days now… “cough”… oh and you understand I didn’t have time to wax my feet.
- oh but what are you talking about?! you are so beautiful!

- ehm mister… I have to tell you something…
- yes yes tell me… would you like us to hold hands, give a kiss and be together?!
- ehm… nooo…
- oh… well… no worries, take your time, I can wait!
- ehm… you know I’ve made my mind. there is no need to wait… you know… ehmmm… sorryyy...
- oh ok… you do not like me?
- noοο! it’s not that. you have all I ever asked for a man to have. you are handsome, polite, you look seriously interested in me plus you do not gamble, flirt with other women, drink or smoke!
- but then… why?
- weeell, you know how these things are. you are a nice guy but… ehm you know… and there is nothing wrong with you, it's me, but... you know… and it’s definitely my loose… you know… and I’m really sorry I don’t have the time to explain in more details but I have to attend in a casino party with gorgeous female competitors, too much booze and lots of cigarette smoke.

p.s. happy name’s day J. of course I didn’t forget you… how could I ;)

30 12 2012

A. is a man I love sincerely even though I do not know him much. his birthday is always a good excuse for celebration in the night between the 30th and 31st of December. but this year… this year was beyond fantasy! there was talking, smiling, singing, dancing and people people people! interesting, with news from far away lands, in their words. beautiful, with sincere happiness or melancholy or solicitude or all these mixed, in their eyes. talented, with musical minds, skillful fingers and amazing voices. I could talk for hours and hours describing last night’s magic and yet, probably, I could not communicate the exact experience. so I will confine myself to share the three things that came in my mind while I was floating on the air along with notes and thoughts.

1. I wish I had certain beloved friends next to me, to see, hear and feel what I am feeling.

2. I hope all those people around me to be safe from harm what so ever. God bless them!

3. I want to keep this moment in my mind for ever… and ever… and ever…        

tonight there is no need for New Year’s Eve celebrations. last night was my New Year’s Eve!

 

 

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one of our popular proverbs is the one that doesn't want to knead sieves for 10 days. in my case I have loads of work to do but I am bored out of my mind. so what better to do than waste my precious time in equivocal activities like cyberstalking. each time I do that I realize more and more how vain and/or naive and/or vulnerable can people be… and what a looser I am = get a life.

for example a 2 min. chatting with a person that did not even shared his/her name can end up knowing ones family name, origin, place of summerhouse, work place, previous occupation, family relatives and their occupations, close friends and their summerhouses, exes and the changes in their hairstyles through the past 5 years + of course their own close friends-relatives-houses-occupations, travel destinations, past accidents, social groups, a mobile phone number, hobbies, favourite music, favourite football team plus how cute he/she (oh who am I fooling), he looks when he smiles. and that is only an example. sometimes you think that you know more for this person’s life than if he/she shared himself/herself. of course you don’t as the cyberspace reality is actually an illusion, totally misleading sometimes.

also, most annoying is when you are a guardian of privacy yourself but your adorable friends decide to tag you in their lovely party pics, where you enjoy unsuspected your drink wearing the most indescribable (yet funny) party hat. and so much with your strictly private profile. I know I know, many people say “I have nothing to hide, so piss off and mind your own business!”and they are right. but still. it’s like you give the master key to open a gate which is supposed to have a ‘no entry - authorized personnel only’ sign on the front! what if I am an obsessed psycho that has one of those stalker shrines with photos of you, creep around corners and show up in every place you visit, leave gifts in your mail box and emails - facebook messages in your account? and that is the most innocent stalking scenario as I realized after doing a little research in stalking history (wowww some really ugly things going on there). and do not forget Orwell’s 1984. Big Brother is here and we feed him every day with more details of our lifes.

well, I am not a stalker… not psycho anyway… ehmmm. enough with that… for now… ehmmm. ok ok! I have to get back to the important things I have to do. like rearranging the socks in my drawer… eeehmmm… oh well… pfff just one more look at last summer’s pics.



awfully sweet

and all of the sudden, I opened my eyes and I was next to a sweet smiling creature with sweet swinging voice. what a soothing twist! just when I was starting to see everything black and doomed. but wait… another sweet smiling creature approached me too. woow! how nice. a true bliss. something to give you strength to go on. ehm… what?! another sweet creature nearby?! it couldn’t be true! was I in heaven after all?!... wait… and another one appeared! and another. surrounding me with their politeness, their politically correct comments and their clouded eyes. and their swinging voices of course. and as the time went by more sweet creatures appeared and they were smiling to me and talking to me with their sweet swinging voices… always. and then other thoughts passed my mind. what if this sweet creatures’ world wasn’t heaven after all? what if I was in the middle of a plague where sweetness came at first with one of them and then started to spread to every living soul around, covering any authentic behavior, any true feeling and transforming them to sweet smiling creatures with sweet singing voices? yes, that could be possible. especially when I realized that these sweet creatures were unable to enjoy the beautiful evening and had no anticipation for the full moon summer night or for the life beyond their sweet world. and another thought. if I was in the middle of a plague, then couldn’t I become infected? I am sweet too and I have swinging voice... my god!!! I didn’t have swinging voice! I have now… and I am standing in front of my pc. while the full moon is shining outside this hot summer night. the last night of the summer…

Milos 1 places

Adamantas, Palioxori, Aghia Kyriaki, Pollonia, Sarakiniko, Plaka, Trypiti, beaches, villages, a venetian castle and chapels up on hills with stunning view of the sea, air in motion, glaring white volcanic rocks, aquamarine water. and the horizon, always vast and mystical… the horizon.

sun & moon

lack of excitement could be due to cloudy state of mind because the sun and the moon shine somewhere else.

p.s.1 many thanks to J. who was a pleasant revelation and a conforming model.    

p.s.2 and hey! postscripts are not terminative, on the contrary… :)    

summer breeze

each moment on this planet is an epiphany! humans are so mysterious, intriguing and enchanting. I love them so much it hurts… or I want to hurt them so much out of love… or not… or maybe both… oooh I don’t know. A. said that I talk nonsense and at the time I was unable to argue with absolute perfection plus she is probably right. I think it’s because of that storm inside my head which is striking again. at least summer is here and I can hope for a sea breeze after the typhoon. that is something.

great expectations

days go by and you do what you always do, live. and as you are about to suppress a yawn and swallow down your routine, a delicate creature catches your eyesight. wowww! what a look! what a motion! what an aura! you have to capture the moment. and then you can not do otherwise but to look at the photo again and again and admire this miracle. but no, this is not enough. you have to express these emotions, to show your affection, to honor this beauty. so you make an icon of it and you write a few words to praise it. and you imagine yourself handing it over and your feelings returned and butterflies in your stomach and… and… and then reality happens. a condescending smile and a typical thank you. damn! but of course you fool! wake up! it’s a bug, it does not see the way you see and it definitely can not read! besides at which point did the selfless loving feelings turned into egocentric self-indulgent expectations?!

Melfys' visit

Melfys paid me a visit tonight. it’s been quite some time since I saw him. we had a glass of wine and some eggs. we talked about old times. we talked about nowadays. about how things had changed, how things stayed the same. he overcame for good all the addictions of the past, except one. too much thinking. wiser he was, satisfied… not. anyways. even though he came from a time that once filled me with sadness, I am so happy that I saw him. the melancholy he gave me tasted sweet and made me feel safe. and besides, we shared some very releasing bittersweet laughs.

he is still the first bunny who made it to the human world you know!

and that is something that won’t ever change.

21 02 2012

and just a minute after my treat for hours of disappointing pathetic daydreaming ends up in delicious jam and crumbs scattered all over my mind, Moby appears and extinguishes my pessimism. lift me up! lift me up! oh lala lala! un – fucking – believable! yes! I am 100% sure now that 99.9% of my foolish dreams do come true after all :)

dog days are over

grrr!!! I control the situation here! I am the boss! I do whatever I like! my strength is immense! besides my feelings turned bullet proof for some time now.
pfff… yeah right…

I want to sing my heart out and dance like crazy! do something like those north American rain dances but instead of rain drops I will plea for acknowledgement.

happiness hit her like a train on a track
coming towards her stuck still no turning back
she hid around corners and she hid under beds
she killed it with kisses and from it she fled
with every bubble she sank with a drink
and washed it away down the kitchen sink

run fast for your mother run fast for your father
run for your children for your sisters and brothers
leave all your love and your longing behind you
can't carry it with you if you want to survive

and I never wanted anything from you
except everything you had
and what was left after that too

happiness hit her like a bullet in the back
struck from a great height
by someone who should know better than that

the dog days are over
the dog days are gone
can you hear the horses
cause here they come

Florence + the Machine

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iWOyfLBYtuU
http://www.florenceandthemachine.net/
http://www.myspace.com/florenceandthemachine

bittersweat remembrance

a mysterious contradiction, an inner rebellion, moments, thoughts, feelings, visions of you and a few nice pics.

yes! it was worth it… happy birthday :)

p.s. many thanks to my models T. and S.

two years on the loose...

Lesvos 2 friends

A., M., M., I., and A. and K. and many more and lots of laughs and some grouchiness and jokes, smiles, looks, hugs. people, beautiful people… friends.